Question by Star-Starlit<3: Boy! am i crazy?! am i normal?! Help!-Asap!?
[rewrite]this is weird….i get SO d*** it depressed for NO apparent good reason.
I know it’s normal for a teen to experience extreme mood swings. and I’m 13. but is this normal:
for a few days I’ll be crazy hyper….as if i were on a drug…i talk extremely fast….and i cant even keep up with myself. too many thoughts all coming to me waayyy too fast. i feel like i can run 50,000 miles without stopping…and i cant sit still….u look at me, and it looks like my leg’s having a seizure cause i just cant sit still. I don’t need food! i don’t need sleep! even when people make fun of me, I’m like “i don’t need to listen, I’m too perfect! who cares?! they’re just probably joking anyway.”
but then i become depressed. everything slows down. i suddenly find it hard to breathe. i can’t stand. I’m always dizzy, and every 5 minutes, i get a tension headache to the extreme. it’s suddenly hard to cope with everything around me. i cry myself to sleep every night.
i started remembering all those things that people said about me and stuff…and then…i suddenly can’t even Fake a smile…it’s just too much for me. i started to not even care about anything. i didn’t wanna see my friends. i lost interest in everything. “so Diana, r u going to the prom?” “i don’t know.” “what r u talking about?! that’s all u talk about! you Have to go!” “i just don’t want to.” “why? what’s wrong?” “nothing. I’m just not in the mood to dress up fancy for some stupid occasion.” “was it your dad yelling at you again?” “no” “was it that ‘u know who’ didn’t ask you to the prom?” “no (and i meant it).” “then why are you upset?” “i don’t know” “you’ve been like this for days…weeks…. u can’t be upset FoRevER!” “i don’t know.”
-a week or two later: “OMG! I’ve just got the best dress ever! ohhhh nice earrings! when’s lunch? I’m not hungry though. i think I’m gonna skip lunch again. I also didn’t get any sleep last night! Aah! I like Peanutz! I HATE YOU! SHUT UP!….Your my Best Friend! i gotta go…I’ll catch ya after lunch *skips away*” “*they all look at here as if she were crazy…but they’re used to it.*”
-then I’ll be crazy depressed again. One minute I’m hyper…then CRASH….I’m depressed…then i almost become angry at everything.
“Shut up! No…i don’t….i don’t haven’t seen your glasses….No i don’t wanna calm down…leave me alone!!!! *slams door*”
then I’ll be neutral again. And when I’m depressed….i also forgot to mention one thing….i am VERY suicidal!
Example: The past three weeks: I ran away from home….first not far…so no one knew…the i went far… my mom had to get me.
I went to dc for a class trip…wow it was SO beautiful with the fountains and lights all at night…i wonder what it would be like to drown myself in there…
the next day….my mom has nightmare…i drowned myself in the kitchen sink….i guess in order to calm mom down…i guess i had to cancel that plan….but how did she know? but i will never tell her…
i cried every night…all i thought ab out was suicide…i even hurt myself…not with a knife or blood…but i would hit myself….whip myself…bang my head on the wall…etc…

but even with all this….i have been depressed for 2 weeks…then neutral…then hyper again….then i gotta another CRASH…and at the moment, I’m neutral. But i was Extremely hyper like nutz for the past 2 day…but now I’m neutral…but i wonder when’s my next CRASH…it’s like a cycle…
except….i wasn’t really suicidal before….the last time i ever became suicidal….besides now….was a year or two ago. I’m now in 8th grade…i was suicidal in 5th and 6th grade…i even tried too…but failed…i was right about to kill myself with the kitchen knife…but instead….i decided to put it down. and i tried again and again and failed…right now….I’m still a little suicidal…but so far….I’ve got nothing planned.
But still…I’m only 13…it’s supposed to be normal for mood swings…but at an extreme like this??? I’m not sure…PLEASE HELP!!!
And please lend advice and so forth…thx….God Bless You All!
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