Question by Abby: What should I do about my drug abuse?
Ok, so I just graduated high school at the top of my class. I made really good grades, did well in sports, won tons of awards blah blah blah. Basically, If everyone didn’t know that I abused drugs on a daily basis, no one would suspect anything because it doesn’t affect my life in a public way. Its a little strange that I abuse substances so frequently because I have absolutely no family history of substance abuse and my two older brothers were golden children who never even drank in high school and only drank in college in party situations. However, I unquestionably have a substance abuse problem. I smoke weed everyday, usually multiple times. I drink close to everyday, probably 4-5 times a week (not always with my friends). I do cocaine fairly regularly. I literally have to take Adderall if I have a lot of school work I need to do (during the school year about once a week). And I mix other drugs in with those occasionally too. While my abuse started out with partying, I now do drugs or drink all the time (before school, before work, before any time I have to spend with my family and of course at parties). My parents really don’t know that I have a problem, they know I’m a little wild but only suspect me of drinking occasionally. The problem is I would never ask my parents to send me to rehab plus I’m going to the University of Virginia in about a month. What I’m most scared about is that I will go absolutely out of control in college where substances are even more present than they are in my life now. UVA is pretty well known for alcohol, marijuana and most notably cocaine. I know I’m going to end up screwing my life up but I just can’t stop. I know I have a lot of things that could be worked out if I saw a therapist but I don’t know how I would do that either. I pretty much feel stuck and I don’t know where to turn anymore.
Oh, I also wanted to add that I’m not an addict(yet). The problem isn’t that I would suffer withdrawals because not using a particular substance doesn’t really affect me at all because I switch up the drugs that I abuse. I know if I continue on this path I’m going to have alot of problems but I don’t have any fun when I’m not high on something. Life without substances seems so much more strenuous and boring and I’ve abused drugs since I was 12 or 13. I can’t even imagine being sober at college and I honestly don’t really think that thats an option. I just want to be able to drink socially and moderately but it seems so crazy and unrealistic to me.    Read more...